All these words on replay.

This week hasn't been amazing. Probably one of the worst of this year, including New Year.

I fell out with one of my best friends in the entire world last Saturday. He brought up something from my past on a bus, in front of a friend. I didn't appreciate it, it actually really upset me that he'd bring up something I told him in confidence. As it turned out, he'd told our other friend at the time which also upset me as, as far as I was aware, 3 people knew about the incident. It's not something I like to remember, it's in the past and I don't think it needed to be brought up for what I can only assume was an attempt at a cheap laugh. At the bar, I went to the bathroom and when I got back, my (£5) pint had been drunk. I'd had maybe a mouthful of it. Normally this would annoy me but I'd just bitch until they bought me another drink. It's the third time it's happened this year and I felt like I was only around to be the butt of their jokes. As I pointed out to a friend, any girl they wanted to sleep with would be treated so differently, they'd show her some respect. I feel like I get none. My "friend" still hasn't apologised. Even when he was standing two feet away from me at the gym last night. I think I deserve an apology and I'm not going to back down on that. It was a cruel thing to do to someone and, in my opinion, not the way you treat someone you supposedly care about.

Fast forward to Wednesday, someone I know popped up on my chat. They then proceeded to call me dysfunctional (which coming from them is beyond hypocritical) and give me a list of reasons as to why I'm single. By that I mean I was given a list of things that describe who I am. Examples include: I'm too laddish, I like heavy music, I'm not very girly, the way I dress, I swear too much, I'm too fussy with food (I don't like spicy food, sue me), I'm too cynical etc etc - you get the idea.

At uni the lads were joking that I "put it about" for most of our lesson. Yes, it was a total pisstake but I worry that they actually think I'm like that. I don't think it's an image I present or live up to.

I think it's just asshole week. Hopefully next week will be better!

[Title taken from Make up Smeared Eyes by Automatic Loveletter]

Nothing is forever if it can't be true.

Everyone knows I like tattoos.  Everyone knows I want tattoos.  Everyone knows I want the title of today's blog permanently inked on my body.  However, not everyone knows why.

Stone Sour are one of my favourite bands and their song Anna is my favourite song of all time (the name is an honest coincidence).

The first time I heard this song I related to it.  I know it sounds pathetic but it really got to me.  It made me cry actually but we'll pretend I didn't just admit that!

This lyric to me sums up my way of life.  I honestly believe that lying gets you nowhere.  Having been lied to pretty much constantly for 8 straight months last year, it's not something I think is acceptable in life.

I 100% believe that anything that is a lie will not last.  I don't lie to anyone, about anything.  If you ask me a question, I will answer it as honestly as I can.  My friends do this too, at least with me, if they think I'm being a tit, they'll tell me.  It's how I wished everyone lived their lives.

I like honesty, yes, the truth hurts sometimes but I'd rather be hurt with the truth than led on with a lie.  At the end of the day, the truth always comes out and it will always hurt, why prolong that?

I'm not sure I can go into a lot of detail about why I want this lyric, I think what I've said above tells you everything you need to know.

What rules do you live your life by?

[Title taken from Anna by Stone Sour]